Winni (USA)

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Greetings fellow practitioners, greetings Master!

My name is Winni, and I am a practitioner from Virginia. I began to cultivate from a young age with my mother, and somehow twenty-one years have passed. Before I came to America, I always had my mother to guide me in cultivation. Whenever I had difficulties in life or in my studies, it was always my mother who helped me look at things from a perspective based on the Fa and improve my xinxing. After I came to America, I had to rely on myself for everything, and slowly I realized that I was a Dafa practitioner, and that whenever I encountered life tribulations, I should voluntarily look within for the reason, improve my character, and become a true Dafa disciple.

Cultivating Zhen, Shan, and Ren

Right after I arrived in America, under Master’s arrangements and with the help of my fellow practitioners, my cultivation and life were both going very smoothly. This was until a practitioner friend of mine around the same age as I also came to America. Because both of our mothers practiced Dafa and were friends, we shared an apartment after she arrived. I began to help her find a job, studied Fa and did the exercises with her, and took her out to buy daily necessities on my days off. Slowly, I began to feel as though I was raising a child. We were the same age and we were fellow young practitioners, but I had to lead her in cultivation. If I didn’t wake her up in the morning, she very well could have slept through Fa study and exercises. Because our daily habits and personalities were different, we began to have more and more disagreements, and I consequently encountered my biggest cultivation trial to date. I originally thought because we were fellow practitioners, we would be able to live and interact harmoniously, look inward during conflicts, or just be able to point out each other’s flaws directly. But slowly, I found that most of the time I had to voluntarily do things. I had to point out her problems and where she did wrong, but then she wouldn’t even change. As time went on, I felt that I was contributing so much, and even if I did look inward, I didn’t find anything that I had done wrong. Whenever I met with other practitioners, I couldn’t hold it in, and I just had to complain about her. Later while I was video calling with my mom, I even had the thought that I wanted to go back to China. Every day when I saw her, no matter what she did, I felt like I couldn’t stand it. This xinxing test was incredibly unbearable for me. Every day I continuously looked inward, reminded myself to be a cultivator, reminded myself to reach the standard of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Tolerance and tried to think about things from her perspective. But whenever she did something that wasn’t up to my standards, I couldn’t stand it anymore. The feelings I tried to suppress would surface, and I often felt that if I were her, I wouldn’t do things the way she did.

For over a year, I was tormented by the fact that I repeatedly wanted to pass this test, but failed to do so. This continued up until she left the city I lived in and moved somewhere else. I slowly started to calm down and realized where I had not cultivated well. When I saw her do something that didn’t live up to my personal standards, I felt that she had done something wrong, and I immediately would point out her flaw. I thought that being straightforward and pointing out her flaws was being truthful, so I also didn’t feel like I was talking behind her back when I talked about her to other practitioners since I had already said it to her face. But, I realized there was no compassion in my words, let alone tolerance. I could only see where she did not meet my personal standards, and I felt that since I had been in America for longer than her, I had the right to give her advice. I thought that since I studied the Fa every day, my actions were in line with the Fa, but in reality, I had not cultivated Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance. When I saw other people’s problems, I didn’t reflect on myself, but actually used the excuse of wanting to be truthful to demand better of others. When I realized this, I began to contact her again and became friends with her again. She would share details about her life with me, and I didn’t try to continuously point out her flaws anymore. Instead, I would patiently and compassionately encourage her. I truly began to view her as a fellow practitioner and give her my suggestions instead of trying to demand that she act according to my beliefs. In the process of realizing this flaw, I felt like it finally became clear to me how I should act. I knew that in the future I would no longer force my own opinions on other people. Instead, I would try to be tolerant, look inward, and explain my thoughts and understandings from a point of compassion, truly cultivating Zhen-Shan-Ren.

Persevering In Doing The Three Things

After I began school in America, I had a lot of academic pressure. Because English is not my native language, it took me longer than usual to learn and study my course content. Slowly, I began to lose diligence in my Fa study and doing the exercises. I began to feel pressure at even the smallest quizzes and tests, and it often left me sleepless at night. But, the more I worried the worse my grades became. I remember during my first semester, there was a class that I failed, and I became very discouraged. Every day I would diligently read the Fa, but I still could not improve. I even began to wonder if I even was cut out for being in college. As I was speaking with another practitioner, I realized that I had not prioritized the Fa. I had a lot of schoolwork, but outside of my studies, I still participated in a lot of activities that wasted a lot of time. I did this because I wanted to assimilate to the life of an American student. This led to me finding excuses to cut down on studying the Fa and doing the exercises, and furthermore I didn’t validate the Fa. After realizing this issue, I started adding daily exercises and Fa study into my planner. Regardless of how busy I would be, I was guaranteed to do the exercises every day and send forth righteous thoughts. I even clarified the truth to my classmates. After persisting with daily Fa study and exercises for a week, I realized that I wasn’t as anxious as I was before. Every day, I feel at peace, and I wouldn’t have trouble falling asleep due to schoolwork. Because I failed my midterm, the professor told me that if I did better on my final exam, he would cancel my midterm grade and use my final exam grade as the scores for both my exams. With persisting in doing the three things well, all my final exam grades were very good, and my final exam grade that I did well on replaced the midterm exam that I failed.

As a student, one needs to study well; but as a Dafa disciple, cultivation is the most important. Master said in “Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa- Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”,

“For a Dafa disciple, cultivation is first priority. That’s because if you fail to cultivate well, you will not be able to accomplish what you are to do; and if you fail to cultivate well, your power to save sentient beings will not be that great. And if you cultivate a little worse, then you will view and consider problems in the manner that ordinary people do, which would be still more awful.”

I viewed the issue of not doing well in school from an ordinary person’s perspective, in which I thought I could improve with the more time I spend studying. I overlooked the fact that cultivation is the most important for Dafa disciples and didn’t do the three things that Master asked of us. Thus, the more I studied, the worse my grades got. After finding the reason why I haven’t been cultivating well, I realized that Master arranged for my professor to help me get a good grade. If my heart is on the Fa and I do well the three things, Master will arrange everything for me.

As I hold myself to the standards of a Dafa disciple, whenever I encounter a problem, I first look within and measure myself against the Fa, instead of my own standards. Through persistent Fa study, exercises, and doing well the three things, I don’t fret when I encounter issues but instead am able to treat them with an attitude of compassion and tolerance. Everything seems easy to solve.

Before deciding on writing my experience sharing article, I felt that there wasn’t much to share. Once I sat down to think about my cultivation journey, I realized that there were many areas that I haven’t done well. I’m not focused during Fa study, and I frequently treat Fa study as a task that needs to be completed. I’m not able to achieve tranquility while doing the exercises, but instead always think about some ordinary people’s things. While clarifying the truth, I realized that I’m not knowledgeable enough and am unable to answer people’s questions. Afterwards, I don’t try to understand the problems I encounter while truth clarification. It wasn’t until I looked back on the areas I’ve done poorly on while writing this experience sharing article that I realized I haven’t cultivated diligently. I feel very regretful. I’m very grateful to be able to participate in this Fahui. I was able to reflect upon myself, recognize my problems, and from now on, continue to steadily improve and cultivate.

If there is anything inappropriate, please compassionately point them out.

Thank you, fellow practitioners, thank you Master.

Heshi

Minghui Article Link: Treating Myself As a Genuine Dafa Practitioner

各位同修好,師父好,

我是Winni,我從小跟著媽媽學法煉功,不知不覺中已經得法二十一年了。來到美國以前,都是媽媽帶著我修煉,在生活學習中遇到困難都是媽媽幫我在法中找原因,提高自己。來到美國以後,什麽事情都要靠自己去解決,才慢慢意識到自己也是一個大法弟子,遇到矛盾難關的時候應該是自己主動去找原因,在難中提高自己,成為一個真正的大法弟子。

真善忍同修

剛開始來到美國的時候,在師父的安排下和在同修的幫助下,我的修煉和生活都非常順利,直到後來另外一個年紀與我相仿的同修朋友也來到了美國。因是媽媽國內同修朋友的孩子,她來到美國之後就與我同租一個房子。我開始幫她找工作,跟她一起學法煉功,休息日帶她出去買生活用品。可是慢慢的,我發現自己好像是在帶一個孩子,明明年紀相仿而且都是同修,我卻需要帶著她修煉,早上如果我不叫她起床,她很有可能就睡過了不學法煉功。生活當中也因為習慣不同,性格不同,矛盾越來越多,我因此遇到了自己修煉以來最大的心性關。

本以為我和她都是同修,生活當中肯定會相處融洽,遇到事情也會向內找,或者是直接指出對方的不對之處,但是慢慢的我發現很多事情都需要我去主動做,我指出她的問題,她卻不改。時間越長,我就越覺的自己付出的多,就算是向內找,我也覺的自己沒有錯。見到同修就會忍不住的哭訴她的不好,甚至後來跟媽媽視頻都有了想要回國的想法。每天看到她,不管她做什麽事情,都會覺的看不上。這個心性關,特別難過。我每天不停的向內找,提醒自己作為一個修煉人,要做到真善忍,也要站在她的角度上去考慮問題。可是她一旦什麽事情做得不符合我的標準,我就又開始難受,壓抑下去的心就又翻了出來,更是覺得自己如果是她也不會像她一樣去做事情。

反反復復一年多,很想要突破這個難關卻總是過不去,內心十分煎熬。一直到她離開我居住的城市,去了另外一個地方開始生活,我才慢慢平靜下來悟到自己沒修好的地方。我看到她做的不符合我標準的地方,就覺的她做的不對,會馬上指出她的問題。一味的求真,自以為直截了當的當面指出她的問題,就是真。於是在別的同修面前說她的不好,也不覺的是在背後說她的壞話,因為我已經在她面前跟她指出過。言語當中沒有善,更無從談忍了。眼睛只盯著她做的不符合我的標準的地方,覺的自己比她在美國呆的時間長就有資格教導她。每天學法煉功就以為自己在法上了,而沒有真正的在法上去要求自己,真正的做到真善忍同修。看到別人的問題,不去反思自己,反而以修真為借口去要求別人。意識到自己的問題之後,我開始重新跟她聯系,又與她成為了朋友,她有事情向我分享,我也沒有再一味的去指出她的問題,而是耐心善意的去鼓勵她。真心的把她當作同修,為她提出我的建議,也不會再要求她按照我的想法去做事情。遇到問題,能夠真正的向內找,不在言語上去針對別人,顯示自己做的好。在意識到自己的問題之後,心裡面也是豁然開朗,也不會再把自己的想法強加在別人的身上,反而能夠做到忍,向內找,再善意的去說出自己在法上的理解,真正的做到真善忍同修。

堅持做好三件事

在美國上學以後,學習壓力很大。因為英語不是我的母語,在課業當中要花費更多的時間,於是在學法煉功中就沒有以前精進了。壓力很大,會因為小測驗和考試而睡不著覺,越是擔心就越是成績不好。記得第一個學期有一門課期中考沒有及格,當時自己的心情低落到了極點,每天很努力的讀書卻還是沒有辦法取得進步,甚至開始懷疑自己是不是沒有能力在自己的學校學習。在跟另一個也在上學的同修交流之後,我意識到這是自己沒有把法擺在重要的位置上。因為上學課業重,課余時間又想要去融入美國學生生活,參加很多不必要的活動浪費時間,導致自己找理由減少學法煉功的時間,就更沒有去證實法了。悟到自己的問題後,我開始將每天學法煉功加到自己的計劃表中,星期一到星期四再忙也讓自己每天都堅持學法,周末每天煉功發正念,還向自己身邊的同學講真相。堅持學法煉功一個星期後,我發現自己沒有之前那麽焦慮了,每天心情都很平靜,也不會因為課業而無法入睡了。後來,期中考沒有及格的科目老師在跟我交談以後決定,如果我的期末考試成績提高就取消我的期中成績,直接采用我的期末成績作為兩次考試的成績。在堅持做好三件事後,我的期末成績都很好,期中考試沒有及格的成績也被好的期末成績代替了。

作為一個學生,應該要好好學習的,但是作為大法弟子,修煉永遠是最重要的。師父在《大法弟子必須學法》中說道:

「作為大法弟子來講,妳們的修煉是第一位的,因為如果你修不好,你完成不了你要做的事情;如果你修不好,那救人的力度也就沒有那麽大。如果修的再差一點,那看問題想問題的方式都是用常人的思想,常人的想法,那就更糟了。」

在學習中,我用常人心來看待學不好的問題,用常人的想法以為花更多的時間去學習就可以提高,忽視了作為大法弟子修煉才是最重要的,沒有做到師父要求的三件事,從而越學成績越不好。在找到自己沒有修好的原因後,師父安排好了一切,讓老師願意幫助我從而取得了好成績。只要心在法上,做好三件事,什麽事情都會有師父安排的。

在自己把自己當作一個真正的大法弟子後,遇到問題首先是找自己的原因,用法來衡量自己,而不是用自己的標準來衡量自己。堅持學法煉功做好三件事,才能遇到事情不焦躁,以寬容慈悲的心態看待問題,一切都迎刃而解。

在決定寫自己的修煉體會之前,覺的自己沒有什麽可以分享的,當坐下來好好思考自己的修煉過程,發現自己在很多地方都做的不好。學法不認真,經常就是完成任務式的去學。煉功的時候也沒有辦法靜下來,總是想一些常人中的事情。講真相的時候,發現自己知道的不夠,從而沒有辦法有效的解答別人的問題,然而事後也沒有多去了解在講真相中遇到的問題。直到寫這篇修煉體會,回顧自己以前做的不好的地方,才發現自己沒有精進實修,內心很懊喪。很感謝能夠參加這次交流會,讓我能夠反思自己,認識到自己的問題,從而趕上,繼續堅定實修。

謝謝各位同修,謝謝師父,如有不當之處,請慈悲指正。

 

 

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